I SCRIBBLED..........

and then there i was standing in front of this huge ocean which can gulp anything which comes in its wayit has lots n lots of fishes in it. ships floating on. isnt my heart the same? it carrier countless emotionsso many memories to feel on. so many feelings. so many poeple that i have loved and there must be few i hate toobut then i think about the life. ocean is endless. it will live forever. will i do? do i have an endless lifei dont have. life is too short. i dont have time to hate poeple. but is it right to suffer in this small life? how can one be comfortable with not suffering? with other poeple doing what they want and me not suffering out of it?i have emotions. i have sentiments attached to everything i own or had owned in my life.i trust a few people. and if those poeple break that trust i will be hurt. and if i am decievedi will find myself hating the person deceiving me. so when i dont have time to hate poeple in short lifewhy do i hate? if i hate someone, is it my mistake? if someoen betrays me, is it my mistake? or should this be taken as granted that in this world, i cannot trust anybosy. so when i will not be trusting naybodyi wont expect them to be true with me. then there is no question of betrayal. but them at the end of the dayi am a human being. i am born to love to hate to cry to laugh. how cannot i do what is my interior qualityif i can love i can hate to. so its prefectly fine if i hate someone. but to what extent? that also depends onthe extent of harm the hurt that has been given to me by that person.and then it depends on person to person.i am not able to qulify anything. to categorise anything. these are the comlex emotions. words fall short to explain thisjust as if you say you love your mother you really cant put in words how much you love her. it will be wrong to say that i love myself more than anyone else. then why i cry when someone hurts me. its that person who should cry. complexity is growing

THE GIRL NEXT DOOR

i am the wind you can feel
i am the scent you can smell
i am a woman who dreams
i am a girl who wants to be loved
i am a daughter you wants to be pampered
i am a mother who wants to sacrifice
i am a lover who can give all to love
i am a sister who wants to be protected
i am a wife who wants to own
i am a shadow thats with you always
i am a thought that brings smile
i am the pain that brings tears
i am the plant who cannot express
i am one moment which will vanish in next second
i am that wave which has come to shore
i am the ocean you can sail on
i am that heart which may skip a beat
i am a human figure which gets hurt
i am a dream that can break into pieces
i am that wish that will come true
i am that smile which will make you happy
i am that tear that you will catch
i am that memory you wont like to lose
i am that love you have always dreamed of
i am the one and only
the girl next door.

I DONT LOVE ANYMORE

i dont love any more
i had been cared
i had been loved
i have loved to all extents
i have been ignored
i have been passed
i have been betrayed
i have been mistaken
i have been misunderstood
i have taken nothing to be love
i have guessed everyone wrong
i have expectedi have loved
and now
i dont love any more