Wednesday 2 May, 2012

First Filled and Emptied ....

Is it true that some times you dream so positively for something that it becomes a living reality for you? and then its so dofficult to break it? to come out of it and think and accept otherwise?

Yes this does happen. It happened with me too. I dreamt of something, and i was living it. i was living it the way you now see what i have written here. It was a reality for me, just like the sun rising everyday, just like the image that you would see in the mirror.

And then someone told me that its just a dream, that i ought to wake up. Wake Up? oh c'mon, this is truth. i am here and this is what really it is. what do you mean by "wake up"? you must be nutts.

No, but that person was right. i realised it. and i realised it a hard way.

I realised that i was not living my past. it was also not my future. and It wasnt even the present. It was actually nowhere. Not on this earth at least.

I realised it a hard way, and i also gave that friend of mine a hard time making me realise this. It was tough though. How about me saying "it is ought to happen this way when i was doing so and so...and now that you say it hasnt happen, shall go back or re do the so and so, so that it happens...and i can make sure it happens. because you know, it has to happen that way only. that is what it should be like."

My god, i could have been such a pain. but yes i was. and i am not now. i know and accept i made a fool of myself.

But how do one realises that he/she is getting into some this sort of thoughts? i dont know this. Its true people say that you learn by your mistakes or you learn by your experiences.

all i can say is, hear to what your close well wishers tell you and try not giving them hard time while realising that you are actually becoming a painful dreamer.

:)

Luv